fake flowers in return

What do you do when you are high on the top of the mountain and the flowers smile back to you and you feel like the nature is in you and you are the nature? You live every second of it and you feel fulfilled, you think that nothing could harm your state of mind and you are the most powerful person in the middle of the nature, but what if you find out that the top of the mountain was just an illusion created by the nature and you fall in a hole which you didn't see it existed before but that was there all the time covered by leafs and flowers? What if you sold all your hopes and dreams to the nature and now it shows you only a false cloth of perfumed flowers and green grass and now they are blown away and you feel disappointed? Do you still look for some real flowers in that nature that you believed was caring and protective or you let yourself fall in that black and ugly hole for eternity? How do you save your heart? By trying to see another nature behind the false one? Would it be stupidity to hope for that or maturity by accepting the cruel reality and moving on?

don't give up!

It should have been a passionate blog, where words go on and on on the board without even thinking. (Women usually have this stupid thinking, that they shouldn't think before saying the word out loud.) I was reading my first articles on this blog and I suddenly realized I missed my unthinkable ideas and words...I forgot to dream because I live my dreams now and I am so involved in the present that I forgot to live in the future and the past. It's not a bad thing if you do it with all your heart, but I just miss my old Alice from time to time. I can hardly find time for my strict schedule and training and I want so badly to run my second marathon but my runs are so slow and lazy...I don't know if I will do it successfully, I don't have any time expectations, just to finish it without unhappy events. My legs are stronger because of the winter sports that have been killing my muscles, but my lungs forgot the breathing after 10 km of running. Don't give up when you started your training! Keep it up and go for that 2 nd and 3 rd run, DON'T STOP!

running on a treadmill

I HATE IT when there is no air inside, when there are stinky people around me, when the TV is on a stupid Romanian show and when I forget my music at home! I hate the fact that our gyms (with non stinky people) in our town are very expensive! How the fuck could I finish my runs when I get sick because of the filthy air?! When there is rain and cold outside, I can't go running in the open air unfortunately. I wish Romania had more educated people...I am very disapointed...

Wish LIST for 2012

2012 is here and I have so many plans for it already! 2011 was a great year with so many beautiful moments and people in my life, and it encouraged me to hope for a better and happier 2012.

This is what I wish to fulfill this year and also what I would wish as a present when people want to make me a gift and they don't know what I would wish for:

1 marathon in spring and 1 in autumn in different countries where I haven't been before. (I was thinking about Ireland and Venice)
See more movies
LOVE more day by day
Stay healthy
Complete my studies abroad
Laugh A LOT
Get moments of total relaxation more often (stress is killing us all)
Go biking more often, even change my car with it when going to the office (I'm thinking about this one: http://www.marosbike.ro/preturi_BICICLETE_-_CITY_BIKE/Bicicleta_Drag_Caprice_Lady-4733.html)
Change my Remington Straightener with this one: http://www.remington-style.ro/coafat/aparate_indreptat_parul/Placa-pentru-indreptat-parul-Pearl-Remington-S9500-9.html
Change my phone with a touch screen one (maybe IPhone or Samsung..don't know)
Get more running shoes and running equipment
Learn to stay more than 30 seconds on the snowboard :)
Travel more together with friends and dear ones
Take more pictures in happy moments
Make more gifts for the dear ones
Get more pairs of running shoes
Run more km
Enjoy every second of my life!

Happy New Year

I wish you to have a much better year 2012, full of love and smiles! I am having the most wonderful moment in Paris now with my love and my friends and I am writing to you in our last 2 hours of 2011. HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

P.S. Don't forget to SMILE!!!